15 Months

Since 15 months I am here in Bali now. I left my safe European home, left any medical support I could get in Germany, hung out strictly with local people to learn from them why Multiple Sclerosis basically doesn’t exist in Indonesia and how to fight my disease.

I am about to move to the rather remote island of Sumba in July and this are the facts helping me so far the most:

  • Daily meditation helps me better than anything else against spacicity
  • Daily yoga helps me with the pain in my back and the general physical coordination
  • physical exercises from this youtube-channel are good for basically everything

NEVER GIVE UP THE FIGHT!

My Fears

I realized that many of my MS-symptoms are by my mostly sublime fears or traumas buried deep somewhere inside of me. Some of these fears were caused in my childhood, some of them later.

For example I think my trouble with walking are on the first view a result of my poor balance, but where does that come from? I think its caused by a sublime fear of falling.

What was there first? The Chicken or the Egg?

Hm. I got no idea. Maybe my balance was rather poor all my life and this damaged balance was worsened more and more by the diagnosis Multiple Sclerosis and its widely known effects on the balance.

Again there are no simple Answers

We as humans love simple answers. We love to take a specific pill for or against something and cure or at least improve the specific disease over night. Everybody suffering from the terrible disease of MS will confirm you this approach doesn’t work with Multiple Sclerosis.

Lets get back on the fear-issue, dude!

What to do about ones sublimal fears? Again there are no simple answers unfortunately. If you ask Google what to do against sublimal fears like I did (despite asking Google is generally a rather bad idea, haha) you might get to answers which could look familiar if you are a frequent reader of this blog.

You will read about positive effects of meditation and some moving for example.