It’s not the meditation and it’s not the yoga. It’s not the jamu, it’s not the fruits and it’s not Bali or Indonesia.

It’s much more, it’s the sum of it all together. I don’t want to call it holistic, because it’s not, but the mind working together with the body, is important and finally I am starting to feel a bit(!) better.

Self-Hatred and beautiful Encounters

I hate nazis, I hate my disease, I hate changes, I hate bad people, I hate lies, I hate people with extreme positions… I hate many things these times, but maybe most of all I hate myself. To heal, I think it is important for me to realize this.

Hm… Easy said, no?

Yes, this is not easy to do (and probably not easy to understand!) but I am working on that. By trying to be a better person than I had been most of my life. For this I am using a lot of self-reflection, a lot of thinking, meditation and, last but not least, a lot of swimming.

What are your beautiful Encounters?

On good days, where my personal sky turns from black to blue, I valuate my encounters different. I started to see beauty in people and even in situations I haven’t seen any kind of beauty earlier.

This is good, no? 

Realizing this is definitely good, yes., but its a freakin long and hard way to profoundly change ones thinking and still I am only at the very beginning.