15 Months

Since 15 months I am here in Bali now. I left my safe European home, left any medical support I could get in Germany, hung out strictly with local people to learn from them why Multiple Sclerosis basically doesn’t exist in Indonesia and how to fight my disease.

I am about to move to the rather remote island of Sumba in July and this are the facts helping me so far the most:

  • Daily meditation helps me better than anything else against spacicity
  • Daily yoga helps me with the pain in my back and the general physical coordination
  • physical exercises from this youtube-channel are good for basically everything


My Summary of the “Smileful-Meditation-Batch”

It was different than I had expected. I can’t really say what I expected, maybe some intense group-meditation? I really cannot say.

What I experienced was 70-100(?) super friendly local people, singing in and about love and peace, applauding a remarkable smart and obviously very well educated Guru Gede Prama and very few sleep.

Oh yeah, I almost forgot

Some group-meditation-sessions happened as well, but from those I just learned that I prefer to meditate by myself. Time may have made become the “I meditate alone, in preferably a quiet room”-type of person, but that’s up to everyone him- or herself and tastes may vary.

Words from the Guru

Gede Prama spoke and speaks 97% in Bahasa, way above my level. Luckily the great “organization-team” provided me a great simultan-(do you say that in English? Pleases correct me, if I am wrong!) translator, who not just translated every single of the Gurus words, but often also their meaning. 

“few sleep”? How do you mean?

Woken gently at 4am in the morning reminded me of my terrible sleep-disorder and my freakin insomnia. In the end I didn’t get more than 3 or 4 hours of sleep that weekend, but who knows what it might be good for. Things don’t happen without a meaning.

Benefits of a sleepless Weekend

Still its too early for me to speak of significant benefits, but my mood-level went up a lot! Maybe the better mood also affects my physical condition, but that’s just a theory. In general my intense level of fatigue went down as much down as my mood-level went up. 

I will keep you updated on any eventual longterm-benefits!

Would I recommend it?

Yes, yes and yes! This was a really remarkable experience and I already registered for the next event at November in Singaraja.

Inhale / Exhale

Meditation became much more important to me, than I ever thought. Not just my relevant two healers, but also Prof. Dr. George Jelinek and Dr. Joe Dispenza (“You are the Placebo”) are all on the same track and I think they are absolutely right.

My Conclusions so far

I realized, as I said here earlier, that a huge symptom of my MS is an Anxiety Disorder. It is destroying my balance, it has a big impact on my ability of walking and makes me easily surprised – meditating helps significantly! 

My Benefits of Meditation

Just 30 minutes daily are improving my fatigue, I am not so chronically tired and this is just ONE of my benefits… (that I haven’t realized earlier)

Nothing is easier to give up

Its incredibly easy to give up meditation. At least I don’t see anything getting worse or any other negative effect when giving up and I gave up often. I made it part of my daily routine and was really eager on doing meditation for quite some time, but its maybe simply too easy to skip it and never get into that routine again.


Maybe its all on having the right mindset. Now I understand a lot better how important is for healing and after 3 or 4 months of daily practice, I am starting to feel benefits from it. One could say 30 minutes of meditation gives me balance and strength for 2 or 3 hours.  It slows down my „anxiety-disorders“ (? never realized or knew I had something like that, but it appears to be a rather typical MS-symptom) for… maybe the same amount of time.

Everyone is different though

One should never generalize the effects of meditation (its always wrong to generalize, I know), but the relatively new found benefits encourage me to stick with it a lot.

You wanna OM with me?