What I gave up

I gave up the hope to find a good traditional healer who knows a certain trick how to heal Multiple Sclerosis. Neither the trick nor the healer do exist. Neither modern science will ever find an “Anti-MS-Pill”.

In my opinion nothing like that will ever exist.

But I am sure…

…the answer is just lying within me. Like Made-Oka and Dewa already said, I have to heal my mind and the body will follow. It not even has to last super long, but it will take some time.

Why am I going to Kalimantan then?

In short: I hope this experience and the healing people there will blow and reset my mind.

Inhale / Exhale

Meditation became much more important to me, than I ever thought. Not just my relevant two healers, but also Prof. Dr. George Jelinek and Dr. Joe Dispenza (“You are the Placebo”) are all on the same track and I think they are absolutely right.

My Conclusions so far

I realized, as I said here earlier, that a huge symptom of my MS is an Anxiety Disorder. It is destroying my balance, it has a big impact on my ability of walking and makes me easily surprised – meditating helps significantly! 

My Benefits of Meditation

Just 30 minutes daily are improving my fatigue, I am not so chronically tired and this is just ONE of my benefits… (that I haven’t realized earlier)

I don’t know anything about Bali

Honestly, I am here since 5 months now and even though I might know a bit more than the regular-3weeks-tourist, I feel still on a baby-level. This beautiful island is so much deeper in its ancient traditions, peoples beliefs are so strong, despite all the modern ways of distraction that came in, it amazes me almost every day.

Made-Oka is a truly remarkable Person

The last two healers I met, Dewa and Made-Oka are both very unique and experts in their chosen profession. While Dewa is working a lot with, according to him, Australian tourists, Made-Oka is living very local with 3 persons in his one-room-apartment on approximately 12sqm and only accepts payment given to him in a traditional offering-basket. Dewa is charging quite a lot from his tourist patients (500k-1Mio per treatment) but he is using the freedom this money is giving to him for treating local and rather “poor” people like me for free.

Tradional, small Offering Basket

Which one is “better”?

This question in the sub headline is quite western, haha. I am not sure, local people would dare to decide or value healers for such a definition. In my MS-case, I couldn’t value one of them higher than the other as well, but despite none of them has ever even heard of the disease “Multiple Sclerosis“, both confirmed me in my point-of-view.

Both of them did healing (and hurting!!) massages on me and both advised me to reduce any kind of stress, doing physical activities (sports!) as much as I can and (by far most important!) bring my mind back on “Level Zero”.

„Meditation is like a Massage for the Soul“

My healer is a smart man. Before and after each treatment we are sitting down with each other for several minutes and… talk! Meanwhile I even think we became kind of friends or at least good conversation-buddys. He tells me about his heritage, his family and origin (Bongancino, Central Bali), I tell him about me, my life in Bali and my disease.

Our rather short, but also quite deep Conversations

The following is just an excerpt of our latest conversation, but also a good example for our kind of talks.

He smokes 1, 2 or 3 cigarettes (btw. like 70% of all Indonesian male adults) and I am vaping. Pretty fast our talks are often getting deeper. Today I told him, that in my opinion, my MS has major mental reasons and that I am not sure if I wouldn´t „prefer“ a pure physical form of the disease. He understood and agreed when I said that to deal with ones mind is often the hardest task of all.

My favourite Assistants Assistance

When I told him that I started enforcing my daily meditation practice (simply by meditating more regular and longer), he told me about the indonesian belief, that the body is just the „assistant“ (his words!) of the soul. I smiled and said I would like him to be my „assistents assistance“ in that case. He answered that if my MS would be purely physical, he could help me „100%“.

I got back on my meditation again and told him, I am convinced meditation is the right thing for me to do, as healing massages alone wont make me healthy again. On that, he replied with the words so wise I had to use them as headline for this text

„Meditation is like a Massage for the Soul“