I mentioned it quite some times already. I am pretty sure I already made big steps in changing my thinking and yes, I am proud on that. I try to think longer before answering, I try to reflect my actions and, maybe most important, I try to forgive and accept.
For a stubborn Bule like me, life in Indonesia offers many Options for that
But so far the theory. In real life I unfortunately struggle a lot with all this. Very often it is easier said than done and its freakin hard, because it means to give up everything, almost all I’ve ever been and many things I thought they were important.
While I am doing quite good process in my head and strength and flexibility in my upper body, a recent strong cold (as I call it) or “flu” (like local people call it) tied me to my bed the last two weeks and forced me to interrupt my “learning to walk again”-program.
Today I picked it up again
Just some minor and shaky steps in the backyard for the beginning. But hey, its a start, right? Slowly I try to teach my legs how to carry my body again.
Well, my first times on a squat-toilet here in Sumba were quite challenging. Saying anything else would be a lie, but after some weeks now I seem to have adjusted. Its still kind of new to me, but thinking of a western standard-toilet is starting to feel strange now.
Something deep inside me even seems to appreciate it. Many scientists say squatting is the most healthy (because its the most natural) way to do ones business. Aside from that it is supported by the daily squats I included in my daily yoga and exercise-schedule and hey! I don’t know about your family, but at least my grandparents always had a small table in their bathroom to place it under their feet and help them to put their body in a more squatty position!
Take me as an example. From time to time I realize how sensitive I really am. I am definitely hyper-sensitive. I am sensitive on interactions with other people, I am sensitive on nutrition, I am mega-sensitive on any pharmaceutical product and on and on.