or am I simply too weak for it? I made it, I made it all 10 days in Bogor, Java and I may call myself an “old student” now, but it was too hard/too strict/whatever for me.
I only hope I didn’t get a trauma from it.
Category: Meditation
Where your day ends, my night starts
You remember the MS-spasms I am suffering from? I thought they almost left for good, thanks to the meditation, but like an old friend does sometimes, they started to show up again to show me I am not forgotten and bother me around bed-time quite bad.
15 Months
Since 15 months I am here in Bali now. I left my safe European home, left any medical support I could get in Germany, hung out strictly with local people to learn from them why Multiple Sclerosis basically doesn’t exist in Indonesia and how to fight my disease.
I am about to move to the rather remote island of Sumba in July and this are the facts helping me so far the most:
- Daily meditation helps me better than anything else against spacicity
- Daily yoga helps me with the pain in my back and the general physical coordination
- physical exercises from this youtube-channel are good for basically everything
NEVER GIVE UP THE FIGHT!
Let the healing continue
- Meditation is super-important and helps my mind
- Yoga is great and improves my bodies wellbeing (and also supports my immune-system btw)
- I love my food – it tastes great and more and more I realize what I have done to my body for so many years (btw I eat meat maximum once in a week now and I don’t miss it at all)
- Jamu is a really affordable and tasty health booster (just look at the immune-powers of turmeric)
- The acupuncture feels surprisingly good to my chronically aching back and is very affordable. I haven’t had it really on my list yet.
- I am happy I never trusted too much in modern medicine, I realized and learned what a huge money-making-industry it is
Compassion
I am tired of all the compassion I am trying to spread around the people I love. No! Its more accurate to say “I am exhausted by all the compassion…”
Unfortunately…
I know how important it is to be compassionate. Being compassionate to others and being compassionate to myself is very important for healing. At the moment I feel like there is not much more I can give. I am exhausted.
One of the key-sentences of Guruji is:
“Self-acceptance is the key to healing” – I think he is very right. Looking inside myself confirms it as often as modern western science does. Just google for it to understand.